Sunday, November 11, 2012
COLBY AS CONTROVERSY
If there is one thing we all enjoy more than sunshine and cupcakes, it's a little bit of controversy. . . and gossip. To show my support for poz models who find it increasingly difficult to work in the larger gay porn world (and yes, to turn a well needed buck), I made a recent appearance on the scandal-prone site Treasure Island Media. It's not my job to judge the political contours of other people's sexuality, only to try to engage (however briefly) your penis. Even if you're overly paranoid about STD transmission like me, there are always ways to engage, from "safer" to "safest", with bodies and modalities of desire otherwise condemned to segregation. I'm embarrassed to admit how my sometimes irrational degree of fear has shaped my own personal sex life. To that end, I hope this video serves as a positive example to others and, though poorly crafted and radically insufficient, an apology to all those positive men I've refused the pleasure of engaging simply out of fear.
Not that this should necessarily matter to you, but I continue to maintain a healthy negative HIV status. I plan to die eventually though. Illness is an amoral project in my mind. It comes to us all. The vehicle of transmission shouldn't limit our show of compassion and love for human life, however defined by excess and exuberance or Calvinist self-control-- my personal, hereditary inclination. Tie me up and milk me! The same cameras Treasure Island trains on internal creampies didn't somehow magically infuse my handjob with the heebeejeebees. And they won't infect your eyes either if you watch the video. :-)
Dan Bern's "The Day They Found the Cure for AIDS":